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[x] This is What Falling Feels Like [x]
I think your just scared, or something like that.
But I guess I'll never know.
You caught me WAY off guard and I had to catch myself when I fell.
but since thats impossible, I just let myself fall
and fall..
annddd faaallllllll...
Kind of like those dreams where you keep falling and falling and you know theres no one down there to catch you
and your heart just kind of sinks into your stomach until you feel like puking.
but you never puke either
that pain is just there
and you cant get rid of it by yourself
so I've come to this conclusion that it really isnt me, its you.
your just scared to catch me.
but you hate to watch me fall too.
and your scared to fall.
Cause you dont think Id catch you if you did..
I told you (in fewer words) that I would catch you
You must have trust issues cause you didnt believe that either.
But Im just a little girl who cant change minds and I cant change hearts either, cause Ive tried
and it just doesnt work.
All I can do with hearts is watch them fall and break and shatter and pick them up to try to put them back together, but they just die.
every god damn time.
So maybe Im done trying for now
cause Im so sick
and tired
sick and tired of watching everything fall and I cant do anything about it
cause Im just a little girl
trapped in the mind of a 30 year old who wants to save everything.
wishful thinking is a bitch.
so wheres the black hole cause Id really love to go there and just scream until I can taste blood and my vocal cords disappear.
but I cant do that either.
cause Im just a little girl who cant find her way anywhere
let alone find the black hole.
So this whole "you have so much ahead of you" bullshit is making me sick.
If you havent caught on yet, I kind of live for the moment, not for 10 years from right now
and right now Im hurt
and right now I cant cry anymore
but later on tonight will be a different story
Cause every god damn song reminds me
Of seeing everything fall to peices.
and I cant catch it
so I'll just keep watching it fall and reminding myself that Im just a little girl, and I "have so much ahead of me"
like what? Watching more shit fall to hell?
Okay, thanks..
so much for wishful thinking right?
I think your just scared, or something like that.
But I guess I'll never know.
You caught me WAY off guard and I had to catch myself when I fell.
but since thats impossible, I just let myself fall
and fall..
annddd faaallllllll...
Kind of like those dreams where you keep falling and falling and you know theres no one down there to catch you
and your heart just kind of sinks into your stomach until you feel like puking.
but you never puke either
that pain is just there
and you cant get rid of it by yourself
so I've come to this conclusion that it really isnt me, its you.
your just scared to catch me.
but you hate to watch me fall too.
and your scared to fall.
Cause you dont think Id catch you if you did..
I told you (in fewer words) that I would catch you
You must have trust issues cause you didnt believe that either.
But Im just a little girl who cant change minds and I cant change hearts either, cause Ive tried
and it just doesnt work.
All I can do with hearts is watch them fall and break and shatter and pick them up to try to put them back together, but they just die.
every god damn time.
So maybe Im done trying for now
cause Im so sick
and tired
sick and tired of watching everything fall and I cant do anything about it
cause Im just a little girl
trapped in the mind of a 30 year old who wants to save everything.
wishful thinking is a bitch.
so wheres the black hole cause Id really love to go there and just scream until I can taste blood and my vocal cords disappear.
but I cant do that either.
cause Im just a little girl who cant find her way anywhere
let alone find the black hole.
So this whole "you have so much ahead of you" bullshit is making me sick.
If you havent caught on yet, I kind of live for the moment, not for 10 years from right now
and right now Im hurt
and right now I cant cry anymore
but later on tonight will be a different story
Cause every god damn song reminds me
Of seeing everything fall to peices.
and I cant catch it
so I'll just keep watching it fall and reminding myself that Im just a little girl, and I "have so much ahead of me"
like what? Watching more shit fall to hell?
Okay, thanks..
so much for wishful thinking right?
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love sometimes feels like this
I wanted to climb inside your chest
and rest there, with my head lent on your heart.
That is the image I get, when I miss you. Then my heart
swells and buldges through my rib cage, like you are really inside there
and I dont want to let you out. I hold onto you
until you come pouring out of my eyes.
I want to cup your face, your feet, and push you back in.
I place steel rods in through my bones that hold me together
in ways I cannot.
I tie pink ribbons around my skull
and my throat, as it bloats like there are twins inside
kicking each other, as if to say we are connected
by more than a placenta and then I hear a
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like you're still around.
pretty new starts
in pretty new places;
followed by ugly hearts
with ugly faces.
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words like 'selfish'
there's a man outside missing a pair of gloves.
he reminds me of my cold hands, how they are not the only parts of me
that are pale, a wash bowl gets heavy
and the razor-water slaps the sides, i could never sing as sweet
as that sound, though i try
with sticks prodruding from my spine,
they point at you
with their mouths stapled-shut, they swoon
towards your cheekbones as you lay in bed with your lover.
i'm 20 years old and i tell you sad jokes
about puking up the last of my heart veins,
but they're not really the last at all.
and oh, how i should be happy for you - with your legs rattling
like tin cans, you have somebody t
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This is a journal from a while ago.
I liked it a lot and it helped me vent really well..So I've decided to submit it as a poem.
comment if you like
*RESUBITTED*
I liked it a lot and it helped me vent really well..So I've decided to submit it as a poem.
comment if you like
*RESUBITTED*
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The beginning and the end is what got me the most.
Your writtings make it seem so easy to relate to, and right now, the ending of this, that is the part i can relate to the most.
"I kind of live for the moment, not for 10 years from right now
and right now Im hurt
and right now I cant cry anymore
but later on tonight will be a different story
Cause every god damn song reminds me
Of seeing everything fall to peices."
That part especially.
love your work.
keep it up.
Your writtings make it seem so easy to relate to, and right now, the ending of this, that is the part i can relate to the most.
"I kind of live for the moment, not for 10 years from right now
and right now Im hurt
and right now I cant cry anymore
but later on tonight will be a different story
Cause every god damn song reminds me
Of seeing everything fall to peices."
That part especially.
love your work.
keep it up.